07 May Please fight, Sean
How do I stop my tears from rolling?
I don’t want you to see papa’s tears. I know that would frighten you further from what is already the worst nightmare I can ever imagine. I don’t want to trigger the flood of emotions mama is holding back. I know she is desperately trying to appear strong and to care for you.
Papa will be the pillar of strength for you and mama.
I will be strong.
Papa and mama will give anything and everything to get you through this. Please survive this my baby Sean.
Papa will do many many many good deeds for the rest of my life in exchange for your health. Papa will give my life for your life. Let’s go home and play with your favourite playdough and bujama, Sean Sean.