21 Sep Healing Inner Spirit Ministry
God led us both to join this healing and deliverance ministry.
Day 1: Able to leave office in time to join for the evening, went for one altar call and was good.
Day 2: I had to work and missed all afternoon sessions of the course. God’s plan was perfect, missed lessons were those I could read up on. Didn’t miss any altar calls or ministry sessions. Work meeting went very well too.
Day 3: Pastor gave a lesson on acceptance and it spoke deeply to me. The Lord pointed out that I struggle with forgiveness for myself for sins that I have done, that I’m not worthy to be a child of God.
In the Parable of Prodigal Son, that Pastor shared, I see myself as a hired help but actually I’m a child of God, not just a hired help. It was just a lesson but I was weeping by myself at the back of the hall. During altar call 2, the Lord spoke. that He is delighted with me. and the word given was “potential”. During altar call 3, prayer minister prayed deliverance of fear. I felt generally peaceful.
Day 3 and 4: Somehow I have no personal counsellors assigned. I felt disappointed and frustrated. However I left these emotions with Jesus and felt peaceful and thank God I can spend some time with Sean in East Coast, while waiting to be assigned counsellor.
Day 4: I was called to come to 10 am for ministry. When I arrived I realised I still do not have counsellors. I felt disappointed and lost. As I sat there waiting, I was reminded by God: “Didn’t you pray to be my lowest humble servant? and you cannot wait for your brothers to finish their sessions and to be the last to go? Don’t you trust my plans?” And I repented and say “yes Lord, let them go first, and I trust in You”
One on one ministry: We did the usual to renounce past occult practices, repent of all sins, cut off all ungodly ties and repent of generational sins. In vision, I saw a dark place but holes were poked and light is slowly shining in, more and more. A white dove flying down into the dark place. 3 “small” angels at the side (up high) with trumpets. Dove is sometimes small, sometimes big.
I felt generally assured of forgiveness and generally peaceful, full of sobbing and weeping of course.
We did “back to womb” ministry, will skip the details but generally I felt the happiness of my parents, elder sister, grandmother and the sovereignty of Jesus.
What’s more impactful for me was that I saw Jesus Christ together with my father when I was born. I walked in as adult me carrying the baby me and I spoke to baby me. You are blessed… and I paused… then I said (nobody was prompting me.. this was 100% from myself.) “You are a child of mother and father, and you are a child of God”
When I blurted these word to baby me, deep in my spirit, suddenly I knew I’m a child of God, that Jesus was with me before I was born. He made me, He was pleased with me. When I next saw Him in my vision after my surgery, He knew me but He didn’t look at me nor spoke to me. He was upset with me but Jesus doesn’t forsake and He doesn’t give up on us. He healed me in body and spirit. Jesus loves each one of us and Jesus is relentless in pursuing us. He will keep coming at every single one of us with love.
After ministry, I was reading bible and was brought back to Acts again. Acts 28:28-30:
“Therefore I want you to know that God’s salvation has been sent to the Gentiles, and they will listen!”
For two whole years Paul stayed there in his own rented house and welcomed all who came to see him. He proclaimed the kingdom of God and taught about the Lord Jesus Christ—with all boldness and without hindrance!