I was born in a Singapore Chinese family where religion is a mix-bag of ancestor worship, Taoist and Buddhist influenced rituals. Personally, my spiritual quest has been varied and "all over the place". One of the books we studied listed some common spiritual quest positions...

12 October, 2018 /

How do I stop my tears from rolling? I don't want you to see papa's tears. I know that would frighten you further from what is already the worst nightmare I can ever imagine. I don't want to trigger the flood of emotions mama is holding...

07 May, 2018 /

16 Feb 2019 Morning was a rush and I failed to read the bible and pray for the first time. During lunch with friends, I was not as "Christ-like" as I hoped. During steamboat gathering at night, I displayed more un-Christ-like behaviours and gave in to more...

16 February, 2018 /

By this time, I have been quite ill and in pain for about 5 months. Had my death-bed experience, emergency exit from UK to Singapore, failed first surgery, been on the machine for 5 weeks, failed second surgery and doctors are telling me very discouraging...

01 January, 2018 /
I have fallen sick over the last 5 months. I am fighting and intend to win this battle. During this period, I thought about many different aspects of life and would like to write down my thoughts. "Pain is weakness leaving the body" but what if it doesn't leave?
27 December, 2017 /